RRANDOM THOUGHTS

"tak ingin ku melepaskan mu" is a very strong sentence in my life now..
coz i realsise tt i gave up to many guys in my life for a girl hu likes the same guy as i do..
i mean i'm not trying to be selfish or anything but i have always give in to other girls..
now i am trying not to give in easily..
i will hold on as long as i can till i get wad i want..
but i wun do nasty things to get it..
so i will fight for wad's mine..
but i'm not so sure abt him..
i duno wad's his feelings towards me..
i dunno how much more can i tolerate not knowing anything abt his feelings towards me..
it's sucks not knowing nth..
it makes me feel lost and confused..
i just dun wanna let go w/o knowing the other party's feeling..
y is it so unfair to me when it comes to liking or falling in love with someone..
it always gets so complicated..
bloody annoying..
like i feel there's something different in him now ever since he gets back from bintan..
maybe it's true abt him and tt girl..
but i dun want to think negatively..
coz it makes me feel sick in the stomach and feel like vomiting..
but if i really is true, den i have to just back away..
i can't stop someone from having feelings for the other person..
but i am praying hard tt it is so not true..
coz if it's true, den i'll really be HEARTBROKEN..
den he has broken his promise tt he has made to brahim..
so i will take things slowly dun wanna rush things to make him hate me or wadever..
coz today i went out with fizah to print out the stupid bookmark..
so we went shopping coz i was feeling super stress..
den i bought myself a 3/4 pants..
and i bought for him a cap..
i really didn't noe wad cap or hat to get him..
but when i went o ministry of clothing i saw a cap tt totally screams his name..
so i bought it for him..
i really do hope he appraciate it..
coz it come from the bottom of my heart..
and it's gift of appreciation from me to him for all the wonderful time and memories we had together..
only he noes wad i mean by tt..
hehehe..
i dunno when he gonna meet him so tt i can pass to him his cap..
coz if he wun meet me, i will not pass it to him..
so i am really hoping tt i can just spend one day with him..
i really miss him alot since he left for bintan till now..
but nvrmx must take things slowly..
i will update more random things now..
maybe tmr abt food or clothes or minah or mat or wadever..
something tt will make me laugh abt..


p.s: i miss u too much already..