DEPRESSED SHIT!!

I noe tt i am not suppose to be depressed abt relationship but this things has been haunting me lately..
i can't sleepy properly after a few nights ago..
he is like making me having second thoughts abt him..
i really dunno wad i shud be doing with my life now..
like he keeps on thnkng tt i am still crazy over him but i'm not..
i got no freaking idea hwr in the world he gets tt stupid idea..
did my mail send out to him gave him the worng note..
maybe it does..
but i am seriously not crazy for him..
say only want to meet him today after skul abt 3 plus..
waitied for him still 5 plus..
stupid asshole and didn't even say anything..
swine..
but like i dunno ah..
i sat beside him and talk to him as per normal..
but his shoes looks like bowling shoe..
wahahah..
coz of soccer actually tt's y he came down..
i become the watergirl/ballpicker/P.S.D/massager/cheerleader..
wahaha, i had so many role to do..
coz like they need someone to do all those and they think i'm best for the job..
idiot all this boys, like to make fun of me..
but hey, i love hanging wiht this boys..
always makes me smile and laugh my ass off..
like wad happen btw me, yat, rashid and shahrul..
they are blody hilarious..
i laugh till my jaws were hurting badly..
i can't sit woth them w/o me laughing my ass of..
i just rmbr y am so bloody depressed abt r/s..
it's coz or the movie i watched today at aidil's lap top, ayat-ayat cinta..
oh my god!!
the movie is so bloody touching, fucking romantic..
if only really in real life i got fahir as my husband..
i am willing to change for the better and live happily with him..
but knowing tt 3 other girls are also in love with the same guy it hurt..
aisha is such a wonderful, strong and loyal wife towards fahir..
for those hu hasn't watch the show yet, pls i recommed u to watch it..
it's such an awesome and amazing show..
coz of tt show it makes me realise how important it is to find ut soulmate but it lies in the hands of ALLAH..
u can't force or rush or defy him on the plans tt he has already made for u..
all u have to do is to face it straight on and decide if u wanna take up the challenge or not..
oh well, life still goes on for me and taking it slowly even though it hurts to see things or knowing something ard u..
tt's just me, hope everyone else will have a happy life with their love ones..
*crying on the inside*