RELATIONSHIP

i am still wondering hu will be my future bf/husband/soulmate..
coz this is wad been discuss between me, farahin and galvin..
for all u single ppl out there, dun u ever wonder hu will be ur future gf/bf?
dun u ever wonder how he or she looks like..
are they gonna be fat, slim, tall, short, fair, tan, drunkard looking, charming?
u alwasy have this so called dream guy or girl but do u ever wonder if u can ever find ur so called "mr perfect"?
every r/s tt u have fallen out is a lesson learn and from there u can start picking out the good points and the bad points of someone..
and u too can start forming the ideal guy/girl of ur dream..
so by picking out one or two positive and negative points of a person and try forming ur dream guy/girl..
an pls tell u if u found them..
maybe u can give me ur secret on how u find them or did u just realsie it instantly when ur eyes met each other for the first time..
honestly i am the very old skul kinda girl. whr the guy has to make the first move..
not me, i'm just too shy when it comes to this kind of things..
dun have the courage at all to even ask for his no..
talkin to him is another problem..
i will blush alot and get tongue tied..
like i dunno wad ot talk to him..
my palms start to sweat, i'll constantly touch my hair and i'll look else whr instead of him when i talk to him..
coz i get damn bloody nervous and frighten and shy..
eventhough ppl noe me as the super loud, noisy, no shy kind of girl..
but when it comes to the guy i really like tt's just how i am..
pelik tapi bernah..
i dun even noe if the spelling is correct..
haha, malay sucks..
so to all u single ppl out there, dun fret on this kind of things..
it's all in ur mind..
dun let ur mind take control over u..
learn how to fight it when u feel the urge on doing something..
if u think tt ur alone and there's no one out there for u and u feel like ur dying, slap urself in the face and say, "i am not weak w/o a guy/girl in my life, i got family and friends hu love me and shall live normally w/o any r/s to control me"
and all u women, hu are independent, throw ut=r hands above me..
haha, mcm pernah dgr je line tu..
wahahaha..
lame sia me..
but it is true, i dun need men to control my life..
acutally i hate being control by men..
i am a very strong independent woman hu dun need men to make me feel secure, safe, comfortable or need to have the urge of haivng someone to keep me company coz i got all those form my very own family and friends..
these ppl love me for hu i am and not they want me to be..
coz if u think u can change me to be someone tt i am not, ur so bloody worng..
i will nvr change for u, just so tt u can have and lead a happy life..
if the changes is for my own good den i will, if not boleh kirim salam sua..
i'll do the opposite of wad u want me to be..
i wun be the fool tt i used to be..
i got a brain of my own and i noe how to use it..
so u got no bloody damn right to tell me wad to do and wad i shud do.
coz i'll nvr listen to u..
okie i think today is my first and officially the longest entry ever..
haha, i can't believe it..
relationship has many and millions defination to many ppl..
but for me, now is just not the right time for me..
relationship is a big committment for me and i need time for it..
as of now, i'll enjoy my singlehood life till it last..
SINGLEHOOD LIFE ROCKS!!



p.s; i still love u k fizah even if i say all tt.. i noe u understand me..