SHITS!!

so many shits has happen to me within the pass few wks..
i've been really upset with so many things but i cover it with my smile and laughter..
only a few ppl noe wad i am feeling and how much i have been crying lately..
but the one i worry most is alep..
he has tumour in his stomach..
initially he didn't tell his mum but told me instead..
so today suppose to go for a check up but he refuses to go..
so doc called and came by to his house..
his mum is crying badly now..
like i really dunno wad else to say to him just so tt he wudn't do stupid things..
he said tt he wants to run away from hm and rather kill himself..
like hello are u bloody insane??
i told him tt he got his family and friends to support him all the way but i dunno wad's goin on in his sick head of his..
he looks so pale an in pain just now..
i can't get him out of my head..
i am just too worried for him..
i really dun want him to spend his life doing nth..
wasting his time doin things tt he will regret..
i wanna be there for him but if he refuses me to come close i really dunno how to help me..
dear god, pls help in this..
i dunno wad else i can do to make things better for him..
i just want him to have a wonderful life ahead of him with his family..
i already got so much on my mind..
i can't take it but i noe tt i can manage it but for how long?
my main concern is him..
he needs me more than anyone else..
i try to be there for him so much as i can and attend to him if i can..
i just hope tt he will get better..
i will pray for him everyday..
he needs all the prayer and well wishes he can get but it also depends if he wants to be treated..
stubborn boy..
HELP ME PLS!!