PRINCE MASAI

i just can't stop thinking abt him..
i really dun wanna blog abt him but i can't help it..
my blog, my life, my story, my problem..
i really dun wanna get myself in the same situation as last time whereby i iike the person but he dun have tt kind of same feelings towards me..
i mean he's different from the rest..
u shud think ya all the guys same or i ended up witht he same type of guys but seriosuly he's different..
he's so sweet, sincere, kind, thoughtful and the most important thing is tt he's very respectful and honest towards me..
he doesn't hides his feeling or emotions towards me..
if he's not happy he tells me..
i really whr am i goin with him..
i dun wanna be lead on again and get myself disappointed..
i noe i'm only 19 and i still got long way to go but still i do need some one special company in my life..
i do wanna have wad the rest of the ppl other feels when they're with tt special someone.
holding their hands, getting a hug or a kiss or just simply enjoying each other presence..
i miss all that kind of feelings..
i really get tt when i was with "him"(no. 3 i think)
but with prince masai it's really different..
every moring he msg me something tt is really sweet tt wud just make my day..
nth can make me angry or upsets me..
like i wud be smiling for the rest of the day just recalling back his msges..
he's like the sweetest thing alife..
but i'm not so sure abt his feelings towards me..
i dunno wadever he says towards me is ture..
but he didn't even msg me the whole day..
i dunno wad he's up to or if he's goin cycling..
oh man, i hate to have this kind of feelings..
but wadever it is, i just wan things to go smoothly but in my life nth will ever go smoothly..
i just want to not havt his stupid loneliness kind of fellin deep down in my heart..
it sucks really big time..
even my younger cuz already has a bf or g or their own..
haiz!!
just my luck..
i'm not picky, just selective abt certains things..
is tt too much of me to ask??


p.s: i really miss him alot.. :(