2009!!

it's been really long since i updated my blog..
it's not tt i didn't want too just tt i was lazy..
2009 has alreay come and soon u realise tt it's gonna be 2010..
well, alot of shit happens..
esp with my love life..
it's getting suckier every time..
it's fucking irritating..
esp khai..
he is like a big time idiot..
at first he msg me telling me tt he doesn't want to be cheated and go through wad he has gone in the past..
but fuck he did tt to me man..
fucking annoying..
he went out with his work friend and started to have deep feelings for her..
oh mna, like i respect u for telling me but hello wad abt my feelings..
do u ever consider abt my feelings..
it is really hurtful but wad the hell..
life still has to go on..
i mean all i can do is to wish him the best of luck with her but i hope u dun come running back to me when things go wrong..
i HATE THOSE KIND OF GUYS!!
but i can just smile and i go on with my life..
but i'm still enjoying life as per normal..
but deep down i am hurting so much going through this shits again..
i think guys these days thinks tt we girls are toys..
like if u like it u buy den after awhile u throw them away..
like pls stop doing tt we are not a toy..
we are human being just like u, me and everyone else..
u hate being treated like a pieces of shit but tt doesn't mean tt u can do tt to me or any other girls..
tt is so not fair..
maybe it's just me..
being stuid and old skul as ever..
always want the guy to make the first move and not me..
till the guy finds another girl, i will suffer..
like i nvr get the opportunity to tell the guy wad's my feeling towards him and i will end up losing him..
but oh well tt's just me..
i've been woking for abt 2 wks now..
i mean work at oneheartbeat pte ltd..
doing admin work..
they pay $4.50 per hr..
it's still money to me..
i am so tired and wud like to slp and rest but it is so not happening..
my ca is coming up really soon and i haven't even studied for it yet..
i dunno wad's gonna happen to me..
but i have to catch up on it asap..
if not my result will go down the drain..
not easy for me to continue maintaing my GPA marks..
but i will study hard since it is my last sem..
haha, be graduating skul soon..
and i got no freaking idea wad will i be doing..
haiz, tak pe la..
take things one sep at a time..
new motto in life..