MUGGING!!

exams is less than 3 wks and i am so freaking out..
i haven't really memorise anything for auditing and next wk monday is my test and my teacher expect me to get an A for it?
wahahaha..
fat hope man..
tt will nvr happen..
if u give me my notes den i can get an A for you..
auditing is all abt theory and only a small portion of practical..
accounting is fine coz i noe wad i am suppose to do and i noe i can do it..
but auditing is giving me more headache den any other subject tt i've done through out my almost 2 yrs in ITE taking accounting..
i am like having problems with my body..
my body system is going crazy..
too much is happening tt i can't eat, sleep or sometimes breath wel..
plus the weather these days are not really helping..
it's so bloody hot, but the last 2 days was raining..
i rejoice everytime it rains..
now i a taking a short break b4 i continue studying..
i will start burning my mid night oil till the 10th march coz 11th mar is my last paper and after tt i will be the most happiest girl o earth..
i so need a break from skul and studying..
but after skul ends means i need to find a work FAST!!
i'm hoping tt i can get the job at cisco but as a admin girl la..
not becoming a police officer..
wahahah, me officer??
tak dpt ah..
but nvrmx, just gonna send out my resume and see wad kind of job i gets..
i can't thihnk of anymore to blog abt..
i will end here b4 i go crazy thinking wad else to blog abt..
see u ard..
love u..

PRE-GRADUATION!!

PRE- VALENTINE'S DAY!!

vday is right ard the corner and i'm dateless..
how sad is tt..
i did have a date, see the word did..
it means used to but it's not gonna happen..
he told me tt he can't go coz he has to attend his ocbc briefing and after tt go to his friends house for his FYP..
oh man, i just miss him alot..
i can't stop myself from thinking abt him..
some ppl say to just forget him but others say to ive him a chance and wait to see the result..
but how long am i suppose to wait for him?
ill i get old and all pruney?
but nvrm..
i'm still waiting coz i really wanna see his progression..
but today was like heaven to me..
i was surrounded by SUPPER HOY MALAY GUYS in office attire..
they are like to die and drool for..
i am so glad tt i took care of the photo booth..
hey it's $1 per pic, so cheap and duh ppl wanna take pic..
oh my god, i was just smiling and laughing as all this guys come and surround the table..
but i was really attracted to this super tall, nicely built guy, wearing gray long sleeves and black pants..
his hair was a bit messy but it fits him well.
he is really cute and handsome at the same time..
nice captivating smile tt just melts my heart..
they took 6 shots which means tt i got more time with him..
but instead his other friend which sally was attracted too sat beside..
he is handsome but too bad he took drugs and have AIDS..
i felt like as if i was a princess..
hot, cute, handsome and charming guys surrounding me..
sitting very close, wanna take pics with me..
sempat lagi mintak no and all..
ask for me give me something else..
kasi duit but mintak no..
haha, but nvrmx la..
layan kan aje budak2 mcm dorg..
u have to flirt abit with this king of guys so tt ur sales will be better..
and it works..
i use my charm to get them take more, so i have more money..
hehehe..
man, this mats are so cute when u layan them..
wahahah..
i so love today..
will always rmbr it forever as i feel like a princess, with all her hot royal guy subjects surrounding her..
hehe..

MESSED UP!!

things are so messed up..
everything is messed up..
ppl around me are acting strange..
esp seha and fatin..
i dunno wad i did or wad we did wrong to them..
just the sudden quitness and shutting us out from urself..
i mean i do have problem and there is nothing wrong to share with anyone of us here..
i thinnk we be more than happy to help u out in ur prob..
i mean by u just keeping quiet, it's really making us feel so horrible and at the same time irritated at u..
wad i mean by irritated is tt not knowing the reason y and u like just keeping quiet makes us feel so shity on the inside..
come on la, we're old and mature enough to tel us ur problem..
if u dun tell us, how wud we noe and i un want to be the bad guy in this story..
no point forcing if u dun wanna share..
tapi tak pe la..
if u feel tt we're just not the kind of ppl u want to talk with, den it's fine..
just as long as ur happy both on the inside and outside than i am happy for u..
but all i ask is for u not to treat us like tt..
keeping quiet and like so called ignoring us..
it's like only 4 wks left of skul i really dun want anything to happen to our friendship..
my mind is so messed up..
so many things to do and think..
skul, future, friends, and a whole lot more..
i think wad hasif say to me is true..
i think i need to soften abit..
i can't forever be so hard headed and cold hearted..
maybe i shud give ppl ard me second chances..
i mean i wud and might and will hurt some ppl ard me but hey, changes are for my own good..
just tone down abit and i think things might change for the better..
maybe give a second chances to khai..
haiz!!
i really hope the mess in my head will get cleared soon and i will have a clear mind as exam is really ard the corner and i have to start studying for it..
and afiq cut his hair today and a new hair style..
i think it looks nice on him..
not bad.. :)

UGLY!!

i think i am the ugliest, hedious looking girl on the planet earth..
i dunno y but i just feel so ugly..
ppl keep on asking me abt the pimples on my face..
they keep on asking y is my face is so full of pimples and my mum's fae is clean..
well, i'm sorry tt i am not as pretty and clean looking like my mum..
CB SIA!!
like just stop comparing..
sorry tt my hormones ust wanna produces pimples instead of something else..
y does my face bothers ppl so much..
y not u bother abt ur own face or ur own kids..
it's my fucking face for god sakes, just let it be..
den u expect me to put on bloody fake thick make up on my face and i feel like as if i'm someone else?
like no way..
putting on make up to cover up ur impurities makes it even worst den ever..
u'll have more pimples den ever..
i dun need make up to cover all tt coz i accept tt i have pimples and not afraid to show it..
live with it..
u have pimples just live with it..
yes u may go for treatment but dun bother abt other fces..
it gets fucking annoying..
like as if ur faces nvr had pimples b4..
KNNCCB!!
and one more thing..
do i have the look of a minah?
do i?
y is it when boys hu wanna disturb m is all the mats and not those normal decent looking guys..
oh come on la.. FUCK AH
i dun even look at mat reps..
they can just jump into the pond..
i hate mats and will nvr be with a mat as a bf..
friends can but not bf..
dun think they can handle me being their gf..
ARGH FUCK AH!!
THIS IS SO FUCKING ANNOYING..
JUST GET OFF MY BACK ABT MY FACE OR EVERYTHING..
to add on to my depression, seems like all my cuz of nieces hu are way younger than i am already have a bf..
and they are like 4 to 5 yrs younger than i am..
hello i am turning 20 and still there's no one come knocking on my door..
there's just no more those special individual normal decent looking guys out there..
all the guys now must find girls with looks and body.
dun have this 2 tak pandang pun..
like fuck sia..
think wad, ur so bloody handsome tt u need girl hu are like super hot, super pretty super everything..
pls ah, look at urself in the mirror and think again if u deserve a girl hu is pretty..
even those nerds have gf or bf and me?
no one..
no one wants me coz i am just way too ugly and fat for this guys..
-SOB SOB-