MESSED UP!!

things are so messed up..
everything is messed up..
ppl around me are acting strange..
esp seha and fatin..
i dunno wad i did or wad we did wrong to them..
just the sudden quitness and shutting us out from urself..
i mean i do have problem and there is nothing wrong to share with anyone of us here..
i thinnk we be more than happy to help u out in ur prob..
i mean by u just keeping quiet, it's really making us feel so horrible and at the same time irritated at u..
wad i mean by irritated is tt not knowing the reason y and u like just keeping quiet makes us feel so shity on the inside..
come on la, we're old and mature enough to tel us ur problem..
if u dun tell us, how wud we noe and i un want to be the bad guy in this story..
no point forcing if u dun wanna share..
tapi tak pe la..
if u feel tt we're just not the kind of ppl u want to talk with, den it's fine..
just as long as ur happy both on the inside and outside than i am happy for u..
but all i ask is for u not to treat us like tt..
keeping quiet and like so called ignoring us..
it's like only 4 wks left of skul i really dun want anything to happen to our friendship..
my mind is so messed up..
so many things to do and think..
skul, future, friends, and a whole lot more..
i think wad hasif say to me is true..
i think i need to soften abit..
i can't forever be so hard headed and cold hearted..
maybe i shud give ppl ard me second chances..
i mean i wud and might and will hurt some ppl ard me but hey, changes are for my own good..
just tone down abit and i think things might change for the better..
maybe give a second chances to khai..
haiz!!
i really hope the mess in my head will get cleared soon and i will have a clear mind as exam is really ard the corner and i have to start studying for it..
and afiq cut his hair today and a new hair style..
i think it looks nice on him..
not bad.. :)