LONELINESS!!

as u all noe tt i nvr really bother abt me being single and not having bf and all..
but lately i am feeling super lonely on the inside..
i nvr felt like this ever b4..
like everywhr i go, i am surrounded by ppl hu are in love..
wad can i do abt it?
i can only look and stare and be jealous abt it..
even the fattest guy tt i noe hu is hidayat found someone to love..
wad abt me??
dun anyone wants me??
fuck it i sound so desperate..
even my sister say this to me,"ur just not the type of committed kind of girl u dun noe how to stick to one guy, u will jump to different guys."
wah, ur very own sister saying tt, i am damn hurt, but i just kept quiet..
i did nth, just kept quiet..
i am no longer in my teenage life, tt life is over..
i am turning 20 and i dun want to be wasting my time changing bf like i am changing my underwear..
maybe it"s just not my time yet..
so now, i just have to get myself into to move on everyday with the life of love birds ard me everyday..
FUCK IT!!


p.s: i am living in a pit hole!!